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So it has been a bit since I updated. Every year I think Aug will get easier, and it probably wouldn't be so hard if life didn't change so much between Aug and Sept.This year our kids are back in person and not at home and it's quite around here. Too quite. 😧 I really did enjoy having the kids home all the time. For me, I love getting lost in the busyness of it all!  Aug 21st Matt and I got to celebrate 17 years of marriage. Aug 22 was 4 years since the accident.😒  The kids all started school on Wed of that week, which the weather was so hot they got some extra time at home. Or I guess I got more time with them.  It really stinks to have so many things that should be fun things tinted by the accident. And I hate to bring it up yet again  😳 Fall makes me feel whiney.  Fall comes and so many things change so quickly. It's hard not to get overwhelmed by it all. So one sad day turns into another and before I knew it I was depressed. Thankfully my nature is not to...

So I have been feeling really optimistic for a few weeks. I am trying to hold on to that feeling because the bad days are really BAD. You know what I mean. So what started this week's hope? Again if we are Facebook friends you saw this picture I posted from our first camping trip in our new to us RV. This spring we made the really hard desion to sell our boat and buy a RV. We have some family and friends who are big campers. After years of watching them make memories we decided it would be a good idea to try this fun and exciting hobby.  Once our boat was sold Matt begain his process of doing reasearch and hunt for the best one he can find. As crazy as it sounds he always finds exaxtly what he is looking for and we haven't been burned, much. He had so definite things he was looking for, a RV called a toy hauler. That way we could take a bunch of big items. (More on that in a minute.) So he found what he was looking for and his brother and his family were camping at ...

Hi again! 👋😀 It's been a while, quite honestly I wasn't sure what I would have to share. Our lives are pretty quite. Matt and I go to therapy and maybe a softball game during the week, but really not much happens on a day in day out routine. Like in most cases same old, same old isn't a bad thing. Last weekend we invited some family over. It was wonderful! I got to hug people and I got to  "talk" to my son's girlfriend. It was nice to hear a little of who she is. Thankful she was meeting some of them for the first time. So I was able to learn a little about her, from her. 😀Lol  But for real, Matt has always been really "clean" with handwashing and disinfecting and stuff. But 2020 really put me in quietness. With lockdown and and all. I don't think I understood how much it set me back until this weekend. If we are facebook friends I posted this picture. Our oldest son had a basball tournament about an hour away. In the past we would...

So it has been a very long time since I've updated. I had an idea of what I might share, then we got a phone call that would send our world spinning. We were on our way home from a very good physical therpy session when Matt finally answered the phone that had been ringing for the last half of therapy. It as a family member calling to let us know Matt's dad, Mike,  had died. I didn't understand when Matt tried to tell me.I would love to blame my brain injury, but I think I might have misuderstood before the accident. Matt told me in the elevator that his dad was gone. In my mind I couldn't understand why he would pack and just leave without telling anyone. It took me a little while to begin to understand what exactly he was telling me, by the time we were on the road I understood and my heart just broke. Mike was my father-in-law but he was truly my husbands best friend. They spoke to each other every day and had for our whole relationship. As we learned a little more m...

Hello again! I feel like I have been holding my breath since the last time I wrote. So forgive any fowl smell I might be giving off. When I feel like I need to write and don’t, it becomes quite painful. In my spirit. I feel like I have been running away from a lot and using a lot of good things to fill the emptiness. Yesterday I pulled out my journal and it just sat there with the date. I had started a new post a week ago and that has sat half written. The things I wanted to share were even a little older than that. Ugg... Last week I had a moment that opened my eyes to the fact that I had been struggling with a little depression. I was so looking forward to March. The months ending in "...ary" can be super heavy in west Michigan. I believe it’s the awesome body of water we live by and enjoy that keeps the sun hidden. So like many here I really appreciate the moments in the sun when they happen until they become a little more daily. I was also buying into some lies.  Like I d...

Can you believe it is already January? Some of you might say finally January. And I totally get that train of thought. The holidays were hard for me. But I don’t think more than usual. It just often reminds me more about my limitations. I did have some great moments of enjoying having my kids around and laughing together but the sad moments were hard. Although I do have some exciting things to share! 😃 Before I share some fun things I would love to share some thoughts I had during my best thinking time. ☺️ Today,  that was from 3-6 in the morning. I don’t have the ability to get up and write so I pray I will remember the best stuff. I think I’m pretty funny at that time in the morning too. So having said that I will try and share the "funny" things that I wanted to share with you this morning. Remember I am funny...😁 It’s 2021! Seriously I really cannot believe that it is January. 2020 was a mess and I am not blind to the fact that we will be "paying" for last yea...