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I was really hoping that the next time I posted life would look a little more normal. Unfortunately while somethings are returning to a type of normal, overall it’s heartbreaking. I go to sleep praying for our country and the world as a whole, then wake up to see on the news our country is still a mess. So once again I am struggling putting my story out there even in a small way, because I know there are other stories that need to be told. My heart is so heavy right now but I have a feeling inside that is pushing me to write. So this might be a slightly different post. I guess we will see since I’m not sure where I am going yet. Overall it has been a good month for me. I haven’t had therapy either in my house or in an outside facility, but at the end of last week I was standing up from 22 inches with minimal help and I had a few wonderful speech days. Matt and I continued to work on the things I was already working on. I started therapy today. There was  mix of excitement to see ...

I hope this post finds you and your family healthy! This post has been way over due, but I was feeling awkward trying to write about my life during this time in history. Days seem to run together and it feels as if this is not real. I’m totally going to age myself here...😉 This feels like one of the end of days stories I read 20 years ago! 😳 I never really believed I would ever see anything like this in my lifetime, but here we are. Life is very different now. We have 4 kids at home. My 16 year old hasn’t spent this much time with his parents in years. 😁 I actually love having the kids home, but I’m so thankful for their teachers. I never thought we’d do homeschooling at our house. Mostly because of my lack patience. Which is kinda funny coming from me, who before the accident was working as an assistant teacher in a "preschool" room. I used the quotation marks only because they were preschool age but at a school building,but completely separated. It’s complicated. Lol But...

Oh my goodness!! Happy late New Year & Super Bowl Sunday and now I can include Valentine’s Day. I can not believe it’s February already!!! I don’t know about you but the lack of snow so far this winter feels like one really, really long fall into spring. Part of the reason I loved Michigan over North Carolina, where my parents live (👋hi mom & dad) was the change in seasons. (Of course since starting writing this post and rewriting this we now have snow. Lol) So in thinking through what has been happening here, the weather matches my mood/attitude in the dreary. We had a wonderful Christmas with family! I laughed so hard and felt the normalcy that comes in being with those who love you. As we creeped closer to the New Year and my 40th, unfortunately for my husband I got grumpier and grumpier. The kids thankfully don’t notice as much because of school. New Year’s Eve was fun! I did manage to stay up until 12:20, then out!   I miss having friends over for New...

After the last post and my great news that things were better, even boring, Matt and I had a few bad days. Just normal married people stuff. Stuff I remember arguing about before. It makes this post hard. I’m back to admitting my humanness, but that’s what I’m good at. Sharing my hard stuff so you know your not alone in your thoughts. That said... It’s my favorite time of the year! Only topped by Easter, although the decorations for Christmas can’t be out done. We love Christmas decorations and the warmth that comes with them. We are those crazy people who start decorating in November before Thanksgiving. We both love it, but I think Matt uses that an excuse to get more stuff every year. This year has been especially emotional. I believe the holidays are for most people really. I have been back and forth across the spectrum since putting our decorations up. I really believe it’s because once Christmas is over then it’s my birthday. Not such a big deal right? I’m turning 40 next month! ...

This post is way over due. I just had my follow up appointment for my DVT and realized how long it really has been since I’ve updated. I’m sorry, but the honesty in the last post was a lot. Even for me to share. It was emotional and busy, between the doctors visits and the sharing, which has always been life giving to me. I started this 2 weeks ago but never finished so I’m going to try again. I was feeling bad for having good things to share and not a big, huge lesson I learned. But I am rejoicing in the great things so I’ll share them too! We all have bad days and times, we also have great days. The aren’t everyday all day. There may just be moments of sadness and frustration or moments of happiness. I try and choose hope but sometimes it is hard. So here is me sharing some hope with you... I’m still processing the whole paralyzed part. It can hit me out of no where. Which can cause me to be grumpy with my limitations. Although the last few weeks have been so boring compared to the l...

I really can’t believe it’s been 2 years since the accident. It was a hard anniversary for me this year. It should be a celebration of life, my life. But this life post accident is tough. Honestly I hate that it happened the day after our wedding anniversary. It really makes me emotionally dread that time of the year. My injuries don’t let me celebrate my wedding anniversary, the way my mind wants to. Instead of giving myself grace I just get mad because my body doesn’t do what I want...(throws herself on the ground in her mind) This year we added another big ordeal to the whole recovery deal. The week of August 4th was a crazy week. I have physical therapy and pool therapy on Tuesday and Thursday. I have been pushing myself hard, I mean really hard. I had big expectations of myself for the 2 year mark and I wasn’t anywhere near where I thought I should be. I had big ambitions to thank the first responders who saved my life and walking to shake hands and share hugs. The problem was I c...

My summers as a child were blessed by memories of fishing off a boat for our dinner. Baths in the lake once in a while. Fires with s’mores, glass bottles of pop and my cousins. Every other summer we would visit our family in Michigan and the other years visits with my family in Texas. Those summers left lifetime memories or roller skating and Klaks. (An arcade game I spent hours playing one summer) My Aunt’s house felt so fun in my memories.  Moving to Michigan when I was a teen, I fell in love with it’s beauty, in winter first then summer. Marrying Matt meant I wasn’t leaving the state to live anywhere but Michigan. Which has been ok with me. Born in Texas I often tell Matt my DNA was not created for cold. 😉 I’ve lived in Texas, Pennsylvania, North Carolina, and Michigan. I’ve been here the longest and love it here and so does Matt.  Back to my point 😁. Due to this accident we were able to fulfill a dream I’ve had on my heart for years. Unlike the "promise" made on TV, in ...