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Have you ever had someone say a word that made the puzzle pieces fit? That happened to me this morning as I listened to our church online. So unfortunately I’m going to vomit on you (sorry Pastor Tim) but hopefully I wrap it up in hope at the end. I have been feeling this big time since I last wrote. It’s a very strange kind of weariness. It’s very heavy and dark. Maybe you have experienced this type before and honestly I’m sure I have. Matt and I have lived through a lot of craziness in our time together. As I’m sure you have too. But 2020 has taken us to a whole other level. I know it has for so many. I, like many others blame oddities that happen to us to 2020.  So I’ve had some really great walking records over the last few months. I’ve also had an increase in nerve pain. I’m sure that adds to the weariness. Every time I’ve had an increase in nerve pain I ‘get something’ back. This time has been very bad often bringing me to tears. Nerve pain is so weird in the fact that it isn...

Hi...so these thoughts have been rattling around in my head for about a month.( Probably since I posted last. I didn’t realize how these thoughts went right along with my last post. ) Not writing is a problem for me. I believe I’ve shared how if I let something simmer instead of sharing I often get emotional and frustrated. I have always been like that. I have years of journals that will probably never be read, and that’s ok with me (most of the entries were ramblings of an angry younger me. Nobody wants to meet her again). I remember starting a blog years ago for the same reason. I’m not sure anyone read that either and again that’s ok. Then I had a moment where I felt the need to change it up so I started sharing on this blog. If you’ve read back to some of the stuff I wrote before I started using this for updates, you’ll read some of the thoughts begging to get out of me years ago. Although the circumstances of my life are different that need to at least attempt to be heard is still...

Well no pool for me this year but my happy place is sitting on my deck listening to the splashing and laughter of my children while they are in the pool. Before the accident you would have found me in the pool alllll day! So as has been my life for the last few years and now our lives in general I’m learning to adapt to a new normal. I can’t believe we are already making decisions about school and choices. The events of our world still tug on my heart pulling me into prayer. Similar to my last post I had hoped there would be a significant difference, but unfortunately... So again I feel a little foolish sharing what is going on in my life with so many uncertainty going on, but hopefully this brings a smile to your heart.☺️ Therapies are still going well! I would like to share some of what has happened this last week and this week. My speech therapist tells me often the journey to healing isn’t a straight uphill battle but a mountain/valley/mountain journey. I think that is so true in a...

Summer is officially here! Ok, ok it’s been ‘here’ for a while, but honestly with school being at home then off on break, the days definitely get lost. So, no school and therapy has been going 2 weeks, which means I’m working hard and super tired, so the days are mushed together. BUT we did get out on the boat!  (I giggle a little at my eyebrows and eye size.  Matt swears they don't look that funny all the time. I'm not buying it)  That ride reminded me of last summer and some wonderful ladies we took out. Which of course leads me to those I’d like to invite out this year...but this stupid pandemic is messing up my social life.😡 Although if I’m really truthful with myself the injuries held me back from my friends, or at least that is what I tell myself. I, for sure am not as social as I was before. Which is totally my fault. I have some amazing family and friends who have gone out of their way to support myself and my family. Although the last few weeks have ...

I was really hoping that the next time I posted life would look a little more normal. Unfortunately while somethings are returning to a type of normal, overall it’s heartbreaking. I go to sleep praying for our country and the world as a whole, then wake up to see on the news our country is still a mess. So once again I am struggling putting my story out there even in a small way, because I know there are other stories that need to be told. My heart is so heavy right now but I have a feeling inside that is pushing me to write. So this might be a slightly different post. I guess we will see since I’m not sure where I am going yet. Overall it has been a good month for me. I haven’t had therapy either in my house or in an outside facility, but at the end of last week I was standing up from 22 inches with minimal help and I had a few wonderful speech days. Matt and I continued to work on the things I was already working on. I started therapy today. There was  mix of excitement to see ...

I hope this post finds you and your family healthy! This post has been way over due, but I was feeling awkward trying to write about my life during this time in history. Days seem to run together and it feels as if this is not real. I’m totally going to age myself here...😉 This feels like one of the end of days stories I read 20 years ago! 😳 I never really believed I would ever see anything like this in my lifetime, but here we are. Life is very different now. We have 4 kids at home. My 16 year old hasn’t spent this much time with his parents in years. 😁 I actually love having the kids home, but I’m so thankful for their teachers. I never thought we’d do homeschooling at our house. Mostly because of my lack patience. Which is kinda funny coming from me, who before the accident was working as an assistant teacher in a "preschool" room. I used the quotation marks only because they were preschool age but at a school building,but completely separated. It’s complicated. Lol But...

Oh my goodness!! Happy late New Year & Super Bowl Sunday and now I can include Valentine’s Day. I can not believe it’s February already!!! I don’t know about you but the lack of snow so far this winter feels like one really, really long fall into spring. Part of the reason I loved Michigan over North Carolina, where my parents live (👋hi mom & dad) was the change in seasons. (Of course since starting writing this post and rewriting this we now have snow. Lol) So in thinking through what has been happening here, the weather matches my mood/attitude in the dreary. We had a wonderful Christmas with family! I laughed so hard and felt the normalcy that comes in being with those who love you. As we creeped closer to the New Year and my 40th, unfortunately for my husband I got grumpier and grumpier. The kids thankfully don’t notice as much because of school. New Year’s Eve was fun! I did manage to stay up until 12:20, then out!   I miss having friends over for New...