Cancer Sucks
It is December 23, 2015 just 2 days before Christmas (my favorite time of the year) and I have been fighting tears for weeks, maybe months. Where is my Christmas joy? It's hard to tell how much time has passed...One of my closest friends was recently diagnosed with cancer. I don't want to be selfish, I want to think about her, and how to help her, and how to serve her and her family so they know how very loved they are...but it's hard. I haven't talked and laughed with her in a while. And I really just miss my friend.
If it was just one friend with cancer that might be heart breaking, but there are multiply families in our lives who have cancer, and I feel very helpless in all their situations. I pray, petition heaven for healing, ask the Lord what He is doing, then go back and pray more. I feel so helpless. I hate feeling helpless...I am a fixer, a do-er.
But as I continue to seek the Lord in their situations I continue to hear Him say, trust, faith, timing.
I honestly want to say back to Him, I'm trying, but this disease is making it really hard! I hate cancer! I may have yelled at God, I may have accused Him, but really these are human feelings and once I've processed through the thoughts in my head I go back to "trust, faith, timing". How many times in my life have I seen God move, but not until what I thought was the LAST minuet, did He arrive and prove that His timing and word is always right. I want to say to God, this is big, don't forget how big this is for these families, but doesn't he need to be reminded? He sees these families more that I ever will be able to. He knows them as well.
There are so many scriptures in the Bible that we could quote here and I'm not going to because there are so many in my brain right now. But I am going to pray them all out over my friends and loved ones and trust in the One who has known this was coming. He has prepared us more that we can see, by putting us in situations where we have to depend on Him. So once again my trust goes to the Lord and my prayers continue. I will petition heaven until each of their situations is resolved.
I know that I am not the only one struggling this season, or even over these friends. I do know that God is doing something with prayer in each of these situations. I have seen the body of Christ rally around these people in ways that I have not seen before. Keep rallying, keep praying, keep petitioning heaven, keep pressing in! Don't stop, keep going! God IS good. He is still in control!
If it was just one friend with cancer that might be heart breaking, but there are multiply families in our lives who have cancer, and I feel very helpless in all their situations. I pray, petition heaven for healing, ask the Lord what He is doing, then go back and pray more. I feel so helpless. I hate feeling helpless...I am a fixer, a do-er.
But as I continue to seek the Lord in their situations I continue to hear Him say, trust, faith, timing.
I honestly want to say back to Him, I'm trying, but this disease is making it really hard! I hate cancer! I may have yelled at God, I may have accused Him, but really these are human feelings and once I've processed through the thoughts in my head I go back to "trust, faith, timing". How many times in my life have I seen God move, but not until what I thought was the LAST minuet, did He arrive and prove that His timing and word is always right. I want to say to God, this is big, don't forget how big this is for these families, but doesn't he need to be reminded? He sees these families more that I ever will be able to. He knows them as well.
There are so many scriptures in the Bible that we could quote here and I'm not going to because there are so many in my brain right now. But I am going to pray them all out over my friends and loved ones and trust in the One who has known this was coming. He has prepared us more that we can see, by putting us in situations where we have to depend on Him. So once again my trust goes to the Lord and my prayers continue. I will petition heaven until each of their situations is resolved.
I know that I am not the only one struggling this season, or even over these friends. I do know that God is doing something with prayer in each of these situations. I have seen the body of Christ rally around these people in ways that I have not seen before. Keep rallying, keep praying, keep petitioning heaven, keep pressing in! Don't stop, keep going! God IS good. He is still in control!
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